I can't believe that it's been so long.

So much has happened to me within the last few months. And nothing good.

Things aren't going very well, and my future is at stake. I've lost some very good opportunities within the last few months due to nothing within my control. I feel very betrayed and hopeless. The wonderful thing that was supposed to happen seven days ago is postponed due to some misunderstanding on my part, and the misinformation on someone else's. I'm so close to this wonderful thing, that I've been waiting for for ten years, but it's slipping away, teasing me....killing my hope...slowly.

I would like to talk to someone about this special thing, but because DA isn't very private, I'd like to keep it in an email or a note. If someone would lend me a dry shoulder to moisten, I can't tell you how much it could ease the pain. It's very heartbreaking that it's touching my fingertips but I have no grip. And this thing is for my health, my self-esteem, and my daily functionality.


In art news, I've been aching to draw a picture of Midna from Twilight Princess. I just finished the game and it's really really spectacular.

I wish that school wasn't taking up so much time. I miss doing commissions and I miss being able to draw just for fun. I miss all of you and seeing your beautiful creations that you post. But I feel like withdrawing from life right now, until things are ok again....whenever that will be. I love you all. Please pray for me. I'm in desperate times right now.